Steps for Difficult Days by Nancy Carlson
  1. Day One
  2. Day Two
  3. Day Three
  4. Day Four
  5. Day Five
  1. Day Six
  2. Day Seven
  3. Day Eight
  4. Day Nine
  5. Day Ten

Day 5: God is in Control Amid all My Circumstances

steps through difficult days

Many years ago, God spoke to me in a dream. It is as real today as it was then.

In this dream I saw an appointment desk with a quill pen, which wasn't like any other quill pen. Instead of a feathered quill, there was a crystal like quill which had a little fat pig etched on it. I chose that pen rather than the black ball point pen that was there. I was to sign my name on a roll of cashier like paper on which had been written the words, "I love you" over and over again. These words I knew were words I had spoken to my Heavenly Father and they were recorded.

After I signed, I entered a door behind the desk and found myself in a corridor covered with gold. I walked down the corridor and entered a room. When I entered that room I found myself in the Presence of Almighty God. I wanted desperately to find a pad of paper so I could write down everything He would say. But He assured me I would remember. (Those words would be etched on my heart.)

As I stood before Him, I felt a tingling sensation in my body and watched as the flesh melted off my body. I walked out of the room down the corridor. People were there and I was naked but unashamed. They were awed at what they were beholding.

I awoke from the dream and felt my body. I thought I had experienced it that moment. I asked the Lord what all this meant and He gave me some understanding.

The little fat pig on the desk was the pen of acceptance. He wanted me to accept myself as I was. The words on the paper were words I expressed to Him as we walked this road of acceptance and whatever else I had to experience. The appointment desk meant there was an appointed time when I would experience the transformation. The nakedness represented to me the righteousness of God. I could stand naked and unashamed. No matter what, there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ; only forgiveness, unconditional love, and acceptance.

Many of us experience circumstances in our lives that we don't understand. I want you to know that our precious Lord and Saviour is in the midst of them. He has never left you nor will He ever. In fact, He is working out His plan for your life right in the midst of your situation.

In Ephesians 1, it says "In Him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of Him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of His will, in order that we, who were the first to hope in Christ, might be for the praise of His glory.

I would like to explain a little about my circumstance. I have always had a problem with being over weight. I took great pride in that I could put myself on a program and lose it. Then there came a time when I couldn't lose it anymore on my own and I became obese.

My activity was limited a great deal and I found myself sitting alone with my Heavenly Father crying out in desperation. It was at this time I learned about acceptance and many other things that He had longed to teach me. I had to be stripped of me in order that He could be seen.

I not only learned to accept myself, I found I had more compassion for other people and their problems. I knew I couldn't pass judgment on anyone's problem no matter what it was.

The Lord wants to be our strength and shield. He not only wants to be the Saviour of our lives but He wants to be Lord. He is interested in every area and aspect in our lives. He wants us dependent on Him and He uses whatever He can to bring that about.

I'm not implying that He causes them. God is the author of good. Much of what happens in the world is the result of the depravity of man and the work of Satan's forces. Regardless of that God knows all about it, and somehow will ultimately bring everything together into His glorious plan. God's plan will continue on His schedule.

Other situations have arisen in my life and He continues to show me more. I'm learning to praise Him and give Him thanks for them. Also, I continue to live for others as I reach out to them in love.

Isaiah 30:18
God Will Be Gracious
Therefore the LORD will wait, that He may be gracious to you;
And therefore He will be exalted, that He may have mercy on you.
For the LORD is a God of justice;
Blessed are all those who wait for Him.

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